I’m schizoaffective and my delusions revolve around being monitored by some group through electronics and the like.
My therapist has advised I don’t use my computer for a couple of weeks to try and clear my head. Since I draw my comic and write my books on it I haven’t had much to do.
I’m teaching myself finite mathematics and statistics on an iPad in the meantime to pass the time while I wait for the delusions to pass and for an increase in my anti psychotic medication to be approved. I still don’t know how you medicate a belief but hopefully it’ll work and I’ll stop seeing messages in my Spotify app and thinking I’m being monitored through my phone and computer. My therapist thinks that my dad building spy software for the us government has something to do with my delusions and he’s probably right.
I’ve been working on a governing theorem for an a.i. I want to build called zed that I’m going to work on while I go to school at the local community college for a mechanical engineering degree. I can only take ten hours of class and study time per week per semester so I don’t lose my disability and health insurance so it’s a slow process. I’m watching YouTube videos and finding PDFs of books to read to teach myself this stuff very slowly. I’m not a very good teacher without someone to ask questions about. It’s a very slow process but it is what it is.
I’m hoping once I get into the algebra class, (I scored one point too low to get into calculus but it’s fine), I can go to my professor and use their office hours time to learn more about probability and writing equations and functions mathematically so I can explain the hierarchy of the a.i. Before I start learning to code. I want to proof my theorems if I can.
I have so much to learn and I don’t know where to start but I know it involves machine learning and capsule networks as well as robotics and data mining and formulation.
I tend to get inventive when I’m ill and I’ve been working on this governing theorem for a couple of weeks steadily but I came up with the brunt of it last year during a moment of clarity. I won’t share it here until the theorems are complete and I have a working hierarchy to implement. It’ll be a while.
My goal is to be a high functioning bipolar schizophrenic and get back into the work force so I can work on my own projects in my free time. Disability doesn’t lend to being able to afford to do anything. I get twenty bucks per week that doesn’t go to bills in some way.
Anyway the comic will come back in a week or two depending on how badly I degrade with these new meds. Please bear with me as I’m not actively trying to go insane and be useless. Sorry for the inconvenience.